I'm dead

A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal

You look so tired and unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide

Hoje sinto que morreu parte de mim, que o nó no meu coracao se desfez e a hemorragia que travava inundou todo o meu corpo. Dizem que quando estamos mal na vida é quando a inspiração é mais profunda e os pensamentos mais marcantes. Por mim mandava fora toda esta inspiracao, toda esta facilidade na composição e na escrita por uma vida "sem alarmes nem surpresas"... As minhas palavras magoam, ferem, deixo que a amargura me consuma e mostro parte do meu lado lunar, mas continuo num tumulto, confuso, o tempo passa, mas eu estou na mesma. Sou ingénuo, ainda acredito, no fundo engano-me...

This is my final fit, my final bellyache

Será que a porta se vai abrir ou eu vou para sempre ficar no lado de fora, o melhor mesmo é tirar uma senha e esquecer a minha vez, porque à espera já eu estou.

P.S.: We live in confusing times, with confusing minds... The wind blows, the grass folds, but my mind can't stop screaming... My life flashes before my eyes and I realize... I'm a reasonable man, but I'm human... Ainda ontem olhava estarrecido para um bolo de chocolate, é interessante como as coisas pequenas são as mais pesadas...

When in shaddows I roam

P.S.: Procura-se voz para projecto acustico sem futuro?! :P

Dare I say it

Quando nos dizem certas coisas ficamos apáticos, quando as lemos ficamos letárgicos, quando duvidamos morremos, a incerteza é uma doença, tal como o amor quando nele julgamos ver a nossa cura. (plágio de ornatos) Sigo em frente, mas antes de o fazer tenho a necessidade de o dizer, de o afirmar para que seja sabido. Só tenho de evitar os chicotes da censura, desculpa oprah mas és feia! :D

Ideas worth spreading

Technology, Entertainment, Design

Aqui vão encontrar um sem número de palestras interessantes sobre temas relevantes nas mais diversas áreas... bons videos ;)

With or without you...

Sans toi, les émotions d'aujourd'hui ne seraient que la peau morte des émotions d'autrefois...

Je marche à travers ce froid désert, me retrouve entouré par l'apathie. Tout le chaleur en moi a abandoné mon cœur et je dérive loin dans le temps...

Made to the sound of:
Anesthetize Lyrics

P.S.:Quero agradecer à professora de françês pelas correcções :P

Try to smile

Give me a smile please
Count the calm and watch my breathing slow
Winding me up tease
Get inside my head and make it show

Gravity Eyelids

Mais uma semana que aí vem

Pois é depois de esfregar paredes, limpar a casa parece que estou quase de partida após 3 anos... Muita coisa que aconteceu, mas sinceramente prefiro não me lembrar e olhar para a frente... Talvez um dia tudo faça sentido, agora não percebo bem o que se está a passar... Limito-me a olhar e reagir e tu que fazes? Apontas a arma ou levantas os braços?

What the hell is going on here? Who cares!

I've lost my heart and I'm burning my soul. Life is a mess, I don't know where I'm going. I'm surrounded by life, but I can't feel it, I'm a shadow of my former self. I've lost so much without having no one to blame, I look now and it creeps me out. I'm going back to my home town next month, work on my thesis, go every day to Lisbon and back, get a job, get a driver's license, get a life... And all for what? For myself? Self satisfaction? Self masturbation! That's what I call it. And what about all the people that surround me and all the choices that I make and influence them? Who cares it's all for me, I'm important, me and my carrier... And everything else is just a lie that I tell myself so I can sleep at night, I wipe it under the rug of my own conscience... "You can't always get what you want" but guess what? "If you try sometimes... you get what you need!" Of course when we are to self focused this all turns out to be looked at as psycho bullshit. And my words and my actions? Well there mine and I have no responsibility for them cause they only matter to others, for me it was just another day. Tomorrow I will wake up and remember nothing, why? As I said wipe it under the rug. Jump from one shitty relationship to another like a kanguru-fly, like there is no one suffering for it cause we are all individuals... And if you think you can understand what the fuck I'm talking about, your better off selling your brain to a colon cancer patient... cause there's no sense to be made of this pseudo-rhetorical speech. Yes I'm talking in your face, yes I'm tauting you with my giant loupe, strait in your face as arrogant as a person can be, or I can be at least. For a moment I lost myself, I was starring at this screen feeling sorry for whats happening, for the suffering I've been put through lately, for the disappointments... But the truth is it ain't over yet so why bother? Why try to believe and expect, friends? I don't care I'm tired of chasing my tail around, time to wait and see, you forget so easily I remember all to much. No one likes a smart ass, I take the next step, strangled, beaten up, I jump without a net, hoping no one will catch me or soften my fall...
P.S.: Isto é no que dá re-encontros nostálgicos e anos de tortura em campos de concentração... Vou morar para a Ossétia do Sul caguei para isto tudo! Pff!

I got...

I got wiring loose inside my head
I got books that I never ever read
I got secrets in my garden shed
I got a scar where all my urges bled
I got people underneath my bed
I got a place where all my dreams are dead

I got so many words left to say
I got so little time to waste away
I got no will to spend today
I got to hide and run away
I got weakened inside my lust
I got a wave that washes my trust

Árvore de porcopinho

[Written by Steven Wilson]

You move in waves
You never retrace
Your newest craze
Straight out of the Face by the bed unread

I'm left behind
Like all the others
Some fall for you
It doesn't make much difference if they do

She changes every time you look
By summer it was all gone - now she's moved on
She called you every other day
So savour it it's all gone - now she's moved on

So for a while
Everything seemed new
Did we connect?
Or was it all just biding time for you?

P.S.: Dia 7 de Outubro no Incrível Almadense ou dia 6 no Sá da Bandeira... que dia escolher?

Think twice about asking for advice!

Take the advice for what its worth, the final action is always yours... =)
P.S.: No women were harmed during this! More comics here!

I'm a reasonable man?!

The reason that hides the truth from us, the fact that transacts the meaning. Knowing more then you should know doesn't make you better, it's worse.

After years of waiting nothing came
As your life flashed before your eyes
You realise

That it's time to move on, to let go, to stop lying and let them rest.

After years of waiting nothing came
And you realise you're looking,
Looking in the wrong place

The wrong time, for all the wrong reasons... just let them rest.