Help me with the monsters

Ravaging my body the words that fool my senses, so intense, so deep within that all that surfaces twists and burns the skin. So glad to see that in the end everything goes to it's right place, but before that moment comes the demons roam the dark deepest deserts of my mind seeding havoc... Visions of my past run through my head, reflections of a world that has crumbled and decayed long ago, but somehow still lives on the moments of the present, waiting, hiding on the shadows and taking every opportunity to show its ugly face once again. What am I right now, I am Jack's ravaging memory of a time that has gone, the time that is now is passing, will it last, the future will tell me... The present never lasts long enough to be more then a past memory in the future that awaits you at every corner of the city you live in. Got to go sleep, while I spend my time waiting for some time that's mine.